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Me and my boyfriend had a fight.. and because of his anger, he wrote me something like this..

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

Shyan haay.. trust me lng gud sana po..
and besides.. irrelevant na man gud kaayo bi.. liman ka,
2 years ago pa gyud to.. hay.. love gyud gud
tka kaayo bi, dili sa nagacompare ko ha kay di gyud
ko gusto magcompare n tao pero layo na kaayo
tag naabot bi uy.. naggrow ko as
a person, as a programmer , as someone who liked
what i am doing.. ikaw gud akong support ug akong partner.
lain na man gud kaayo na
ginakutkot na nimo ang past
shyan.. wala na man to po.. sultion nato na di ka gusto
sa way na akong giluv tika.. kung bad
man ko karon, terrible ko sauna.. ana gud
layo po.. shyan, basta remember something,
love kaayo tika, walay makapantay.. dugay na ko
nagalaban ug ginapasagdan na ginatira ko nimo, pero
ginapasensyahan gihapon nako.. kay luv tka kaayo..
wala man pud ko
ginatago sa imo.. kung naa man kay as a person
cguro na wala napangutana nimo na personal and not related to
my relationship. k?.. love you so much..
sana maopen na eyes mo.. luv you..
the link was used to be here … http://tigermedical.awardspace.com/shyan.php

And this was my reply..

honestly, Im speechless. I just don’t know what to say.
Im so happy to hear that i became a part of your improvement. You just don’t know how i love you that’s why am acting this way. I just don’t want to loose you. You’re almost my everything. Living with a person whom I considered my partner whose mind and heart are not for me is very difficult. and I hate diescreet answers coz it brings me to malicious reactions and imaginations.

Im so sorry if i acted this way. Maybe i just had a different mind setting. SAbi ko nga d xa celebrity and past is past. haaay..  lam mo kac.. y compared? coz most of your friends knew that you had s gf and it seemed that you were really proud of her. I can’t feel it now.. ambot.. papancin lng cguro ko.. feeling mn gud nako mao n ang isa ka basis sa pagshow sa luv..gkpoi nako ani.. hahahha..

pero luv p rin kta xado..

                                   —oo0oo—

hahaha.. I’m so stupid! I kept on comparing myself to others and to think that I’m unique and different. Ayt? BTW, why do people have this kind of feelings and experiences?..

I just don’t like them

I met this people way back 4 years ago i think. We were close before. But suddenly, things change as years go by. They became cold and our closeness began to change.

During a cogress, we had an open forum wherein they told me that I was starting to be stuuborn and annoying, hard headed and high tempered person. So i thought that was the reason why they started to be cold on me. That day, I thank them for telling me everything, one of them told me that "nakasabot ko sham"(I understand sham). So i guess that day, it was a new beginning.

I started to be aware of my actions and as much as possible i will really control myself. Well I guess Im proud to say that I congratulate myself for changing. But i guess, i can’t please other people and i can’t change their perception about me.

And Im not going to do everyhting so that I will please them. And aside from that, they only say Hi especially this particular person to people who are highly affiliated or to whom they can benefit the most!Parasite! Actually, about this parasite thingy only applies to opne person.

I would like to say this to this particular nperson, Dude, it’s okay to do that but not that showy. waaaaaaaaaaaa

This afternoon, one of my friends pour her(ate rina) viand to me accidentally! It was so messy. I have to go home. Good thing Kuya Bitok(a classmate/friend) offered a ride home to change my messy uniform with my two closest friends .

Meanwhile, while I was changing my uniforn, my friends were left in the car maybe they got bored so they bought some snackfoods. When i saw them eating those food, i was like acting absurdly! Not because of what they ate but because on where they bought the food!. Funny to think but that was the front reason. How about the main reason? hmm.. i’l just keep it by my self. It’s some kinda confidential.

Well, i think what’s important is that i learned my lesson and through that lesson, i relaized that i should make the first move to reconcile with them.

please pray for me that my pride won’t over rule me.