sophisticatedlahydie

I really wanted to go out from my shell. But I just dont know how. hmmm.. I wanna do something new but I dont know where to start. In other words, there are a lot of things that I should do now but then I just dont know what to do first..

Should I study?

Should I make reports?

Should I clean my room?

Should I wash my clothes?

Should I read a book?

Should I go to sleep now?

 What should I do first?

I was supposed to write something in this blog site of mine but then I got stuck with something interesting.. I’ll tell you about it if im doing good on it already..

I was waiting under the cold night of the 23rd of December near a dangerous street. I thought he would come. I was checking for my phone every now and to check if there was a message but there was none. My tears were almost on my eyes cause, he didnt even care if i was waiting for his text. I even miscalled him. I expected that he will call me later but he didn’t. Instead he just sent me a message.

Why are you doing this to me. Im tired..

tik tak tik tak..

As I watch the clock move its hands to another minute, I was kinda bored cause I had nothing to do. So I browsed some forbidden websites to kill the time. As I browsed this particular webpage and as i read some of its content, I came to realized that I have missed some of important things that I should treasure and should continue. One of these is playing the piano . I missed playing it. I stopped studying the piano because I didn’t have much time before and I wasn’t able to practiced it. So sad. And another is my education that I should have taken after graduation. But then, I was again too busy. Too busy? hmmm.. yes? 

Now,  reality slap me that every second that I miss will never be back. Snap now and it will never be back.

In other words, all the time that I have wasted like i should have continued studying my piano lessons, continue the education. The time i have wasted for that will never be mine. 

I have received enough for this Christmas so far and as of now, I’m very happy. Though I’m quite a gadget freak this time but I guess I deserve it.

As of now, I have a video camera which was given by my hubby and a printer-scanner-photocopier in one which I bought it by myself and still planning to buy some more "unnecessary" things.lol

I’m so happy because its first time in my million years to buy expensive stuffs.

I PITY YOUR FAMILY FOR YOU ARE LIVING IN THE INCENTIVES OF OTHER PEOPLE.

YOU ARE HOPELESS BECAUSE YOU JUST MAKE STORIES IN ORDER TO GET THE TRUST OF THAT SOMEBODY.

I PITY YOU FOR YOU LIVE NOT BECAUSE OF PRIDE BUT FOR POVERTY.

I PITY YOU(THE CHILDREN) BECAUSE YOUR FATHER AND MOTHER CANT SEND YOU TO SCHOOL SO THEY HAVE TO LOOK FOR SOMEBODY TO PAY FOR THAT. (BUT NOT A SCHOLARSHIP)

I PITY YOU COZ U HAVE TO MAKE "GOSSIP" TO BE RETAINED ON WHERE YOU ARE.

I PITY YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE DUMB BECAUSE YOU KNOW URSELF UR NOT COMPETETIVE ENUF TO FACE THE REALITY.

I PITY YOU COZ HOW OFTEN U WEAR UR MASKS, UR ORIGIN STILL SHOWS

I PITY YOU COZ THE WAY U ACT, IT SHOWS HOW UNEDUCATED YOU PEOPLE ARE.

I PITY THE ZOO KEEPER, FOR THEY DONT KNOW THEY ARE KEEPING SNAKES OF ALL THE WORST KINDS!

I PITY YOU THE MOST COZ EVERY TIME YOU TRY TO PULL US DOWN, THE MORE WE GET ON TOP!

note: bato bato sa langit, ang matamaan GUILTY!

Emotionally speaking, I’m very down and depress. I’m tired. I’ll try to be open and understand the situation. But I don’t know until when.

 Please help me